Not sure

Sorry I haven't written in a while, but actually I am just writing to say that I probably won't be writing for a while longer. I can't say how much longer, maybe until I feel funny (funny ha ha, not funny strange) again, and who's to say how long that will be?


I'm not sure what the heck is wrong with me lately. I am giving my two weeks notice at my job next Monday.

And I don't have another job.

I just can't take it here anymore. I can't sit in the back of a factory in a windowless room all day, it is driving me crazy. I need interaction with people, you know? I'm not sure why, I mean I've always worked in these little solitary type jobs, but lately . . .

Oh and I seem to be crying a lot. Like when I typed that last paragraph and realized I hadn't spoken to another person for over an hour? Yes, well that caused a weird reaction.


I have an interview at Kinko's. Yes, for serious. It pays about half of what I make now, but I don't even care. As long as I get to talk to someone, anyone.

Plus they have windows. Lots of windows.

I don't know, I applied for all these jobs, like sales and customer service and training and other stuff like that. I just want something different.

But the only people that called me back were for administrative assistant type jobs.

Screw that, I can't do it anymore.

So I have a little savings and maybe something will work out, maybe not.

I don't care really.

So aside from the random crying, I am smoking WAY too much, not sleeping enough, eating way too many cashews and generally just . . . I don't know, I can't explain it.

I keep thinking I should move, you know, just move somewhere else? But I'm kind of thinking that won't fix whatever this thing is, it will just put it in another zip code.

But then again, without a job, maybe I will be moving - to my mom's basement.

That's it, I suppose.

2006-04-18 at 1:39 p.m.